[	Current Mood	|	restless	]
[	Current Music	|	*Gasp* Nothing!	]

Your Beauty lies
in Plain Sight. Plain, simple and the girl next
door. People tend overlook you as you are the
"normal girl", but you're actually
very beautiful. And you have plenty about you to
set you apart, but more that
lets you blend. People love the stability you have
because as others may come
and go, you will always be there and you may always
be the same. You like simple
things and that's what people like about you. You
most likely enjoy things most
consider normal, like movies, shopping, that sort
of thing and are very friendly
and probably have many friends. You are sweet and
kind and that shows on you,
but you're also strong and not very naive. You're a
rather well-rounded
individual. Even though some people pass you off as
just another girl, shrug it
off because they don't know what they're
missing.

Some Things
That Represent You:

Element:
Earth, Light Animal: Cat Color:
Pinks, Blues, Browns Song:
Girl Next Door by Pilot Expression: Simple
Smile

Gemstone:
Alexandrite Mythological Creature: Fox
Demon, Hobbit Sign:
Tauros Planet: Jupiter Hair Color:
Light Brown Eye Color:
Brown

Quote:
"To the world you may be one person, but to
one person you may be the world."

[	Current Mood	|	depressed	]
[	Current Music	|	Rain outside	]

I'm in a Dashboard kinda mood tonight (meaning a little down) so I thought I'd post the lyrics to some of my fav Dashboard songs. Everyone go listen to them now!!!

"Hands Down" - Dashboard Confessional

Breathe in for luck,
breathe in so deep.
This air is blessed,
you share with me.
This night is wild,
so calm and dull,
these hearts they race,
from self control.
Your legs are smooth,
as they graze mine,
we're doing fine,
we're doing nothing at all.

My hopes are so high, that your kiss might kill me.
So won't you kill me? So I die happy
My heart is yours to fill or burst,
to break or bury, or wear as jewelery,
which ever you prefer.

The words are hushed, lets not get busted;
just lay entwined here, undiscovered.
Safe in here from all the stupid questions.
"Hey, did you get some?"
Man, that is so dumb.
Stay quiet, stay near, stay close, they can't hear...
so we can get some.

My hopes are so high, that your kiss might kill me.
So won't you kill me?  So I die happy.
My heart is yours to fill or burst,
to break or bury, or wear as jewelery,
which ever you prefer.

Hands down, this is the best day I can ever remember.
I'll always remember the sound of the stereo,
the dim of the soft lights,
the scent of your hair that you twirled in your fingers,
and the time on the clock when we realized it's so late
and this walk that we shared together.
The streets were wet
and the gate was locked, so I jumped it,
and I let you in.
And you stood at your door with your hands on my waist
and you kissed me like you meant it.
And I knew that you meant it,
that you meant it,
that you meant it,
and I knew,
that you meant it,
that you meant it.

"Several Ways To Die Trying" - Dashboard Confessional

Pacific Sun, you should have warned us, it gets so cold here.
And the night can freeze, before you set it on fire.

And our flares go unnoticed.
Dimminished, faded just as soon as they are fired.

We are, we are, intrigued. We are, we are, invisible.

Oh, how we've shouted, how we've screamed, take notice, take interest, take me with you.

But all our fears fall on deaf ears.

Tonight, they're burning the roads they built to lead us to the light.
And blinding our hearts with their shining lies,
while closing our caskets cold and tight. But I'm dying to live.

Pacific sun, you should have warned us, these heights are dizzying,
and the climb can kill you long before the fall.

And our trails go unmarked and unmapped and covered
just as soon as they are crossed.

We are, we are, intriguing. We are, we are, desirable.

Oh how we've shouted, how we've screamed,
take notice, take interest, take me with you.

But all our fears fall on deaf ears.

Tonight, they're burning the roads they built to lead us to the light.
And blinding our hearts with their shining lies,
while closing our caskets cold and tight. But I'm dying to live.

"Hey Girl" - Dashboard Confessional

Hey girl, you've got a smart way
About you that makes me wish that I was smart enough for you.

Hey girl, you've got a fine laugh
And I think that I can get used to that
And you're already used to laughing at me

Well, So what if your friends think I'm crazy,
I wasn't trying to impress those girls anyway
They're all theory, no action and
Where I'm from we live like it's the latest attraction

Hey girl, you've got a short fuse
And I've got designs on lighting you up
And setting you off, and watching you burn for me.

The world lives for the weekends
Well, I'll watch as my weeks bleed right into them
Without a rhyme to devide what is theirs And what is mine

Well, So what if your friends think I'm crazy,
I wasn't trying to impress those girls anyway
They're all theory, no action and
Where I'm from we live like it's the latest attraction

And go on, go on, your cruel intentions won't solve your problems, everyone's gotta get bottom bottomed out in the long run and those are
the times you need love

"As Lovers Go" - Dashboard Confessional

She said "I've gotta be honest,
you're wasting your time if you're fishing 'round here."
and I said "You must be mistaken,
'cause i'm not fooling...this feeling is real."
She said...she said "You gotta be crazy,
What do you take me for? Some kind of easy mark?"
"No, you've got wits, you've got looks,
you've got passion, but I swear that you've got me all wrong."

all wrong.
all wrong.
but you got me...

I'll be true, I'll be useful...
I'll be cavalier...I'll be yours my dear
and I'll belong to you...
if you'll just let me through.
this is easy as lovers go,
so don't complicate it by hesitating
and this is wonderful as loving goes,
this is tailor-made, whats the sense in waiting?

And I said "I've gotta be honest,
I've been waiting for you all my life."
For so long I thought I was asylum bound,
but just seeing you makes me think twice.
If being with you here makes me sane,
I fear i'll go crazy if you leave my side.
you've got wits...you've got looks,
you've got passion but are you brave enough to leave with me tonight?

tonight.
tonight.
but you've got me...

I'll be true, I'll be useful...
I'll be cavalier...I'll be yours my dear
and I'll belong to you...
if you'll just let me through.
this is easy as lovers go,
so don't complicate it by hesitating
and this is wonderful as loving goes,
this is tailor-made, whats the sense in waiting?
this is easy as lovers go,
so don't complicate it by hesitating
and this is wonderful as loving goes,
this is tailor-made, whats the sense in waiting?

[	Current Mood	|	pensive	]
[	Current Music	|	"Tangled Up In Me" - Skye Sweetnam	]

I mean to update regularly, I really do! I think about posting all the time, but then...I don't. >.<

Lalala...I don't really have anything to post right now. I'm sure 5 minutes from now I'll remember something and be to lazy to come post it lol. But, I digress.

So, one of my favorite songs right now is "White Houses" by Vanessa Carlton. The first couple of times I heard it, I didn't like it. But, it grew on me. The other night I actually sat and really listened to it. This is one of the most beautiful songs I've heard in a long time. I don't know what it is about it. The lyrics have excellent imagery and the actual music of the song has a very elegant simplicity. Everyone go listen to it!

"White Houses" by Vanessa Carlton

Crashed on the floor when I moved in
This little bungalow with some strange new friends
Stay up too late, and I'm too thin
We promise each other it's til the end
Now we're spinning empty bottles
It's the five of us
With pretty eyed boys girls die to trust
I can't resist the day
No, I can't resist the day
Jenny screams out and it's no pose
'Cause when she dances she goes and goes
Beer through the nose on an inside joke
I'm so excited, I haven't spoken
And she's so pretty, and she's so sure
Maybe I'm more clever than a girl like her
The summer's all in bloom
The summer is ending soon

It's alright and it's nice not to be so alone
But I hold on to your secrets in white houses

Maybe I'm a little bit over my head
I come undone at the things he said
And he's so funny in his bright red shirt
We were all in love and we all got hurt
I sneak into his car's cracked leather seat
The smell of gasoline in the summer heat
Boy, we're going way too fast
It's all too sweet to last

It's alright
And I put myself in his hands
But I hold on to your secrets in white houses
Love, or something ignites in my veins
And I pray it never fades in white houses

My first time, hard to explain
Rush of blood, oh, and a little bit of pain
On a cloudy day, it's more common than you think
He's my first mistake

Maybe you were all faster than me
Give each other up so easily
These silly little wounds will never mend
I feel so far from where I've been
So I go, and I will not be back here again
I'm gone as the day is fading on white houses
I lied, wrote my injuries all in the dust
In my heart is the five of us
In white houses

And you, maybe you'll remember me
What I gave is yours to keep
In white houses
In white houses
In white houses

I'm gonna go...do nothing. Or whatever. I'll try to make an actual update tomorrow. For now, I leave you with the quote of the day: "Cookies need love like everything else." - Hugo Weaving

Ta, my little chickadees! Much love!

[	Current Mood	|	pessimistic	]
[	Current Music	|	family members sleeping	]

I meant to update sooner. Tried to actually, but I got almost finished and ready to post when I was kicked offline. I was so mad that I haven't wanted to try again since lol.

So, I got a car today! My first car! Its a 1990 Volvo 740. Red, 4 door, automatic, with a sunroof. It was only $300 because it had been wrecked into a school bus. But its ok! It just needs a little love...and about $500 worth of body work. By the way, anybody know any cheap towing services?

On a more depressing note, love. Why can't you just turn it off? How do you make it go away? Somebody please tell me. I'm so desperately in love and it hurts more than anything I've ever felt. I just want to stop caring so much about him, you know? He really wants to be my friend. He wants us to be close. I just. Can't. I honestly think that would kill me. He knows how I feel about him. For his sake, and mine, I wish I didn't feel this way. I know it must be hard on him too. It can't be fun to watch someone pine over you. Its just awkward. God, all this that I'm writing doesn't even make sense and there is so much that I can't put into words. Its just blinding pain. He cares about me, but not the way I want him to. I accept this. So why do I still have to be like this? When does it go away? Everyone tries to help, and I appreciate it so much, but no one really fully understands. This will go away someday, right? It has to.

If anyone reads this, leave a comment. Its nice to know you aren't alone it the world, yeah?

Ta.

[	Current Mood	|	sad	]
[	Current Music	|	TV from Chase's room and the clicking of the keyboard	]

Lots of stuff to talk about. I'll start with the obligatory movie reviews.

Bring It On Again: Cute. Fluff. Filmed only in 28 days so obviously not as good as the first, but still. Bonus points: In the special features there is a 'cheer-along' with the opening scene from the first movie. Watch it if you're looking for some upbeat fluff.

Bend It Like Beckham: Excellent! A must-see. Deals with cultural discrimination from all sides, hypocrisy, and average life. There is an awesome bit near the end where the scenes seamlessly move between the excitement and energy of the soccer tournament and the excitement and energy of the traditional Indian wedding. Sounds like heavy stuff, but its actually very funny and cute. Also, the acting is terrific.

The Prince & Me: FluffyCuddlySweet! Ack! Sooo good. Julia Stiles is an amazing actress and her character reminds me a lot of me.  The down-to-earth people and twists and turns make the story seem more believable. Everyone must go see it. NOW. Made me cry. ^.^

Now, on to other things. I'm making a 68 in Geometry. WTF? I've never even made a C in a class! I wasn't going to tell my mother about it, but I did. Now she's planning a meeting with my teacher. It's not going to do any good because my teach doesn't give extra credit. I don't know what I'll do if I have to take the class over again. I'm not the kind of person who takes classes over again. Not that there is anything wrong with it, because there isn't. There are just so many other classes I need to take and it will throw off my whole high school-to-college plan.

I'm on my period and very pissed off at the world. I'm mad at everything and everybody. Then, I'm sad and lonely. Then, I'm mad again. I hate hormones.

Since October, hen everything came out, my mother has been a wreck. All she does is cry. This is going to make me sound like a heartless little bitch, but I have to get it out. Every time she starts crying, I want to scream or hit her. I can't take it. It's making me sick and that just makes me get mad at myself because I shouldn't feel that way about my mother. I don't know what to do. She cries every 5 minutes. She can't watch tv or listen to the radio because everything makes her cry. She has never been the most mentally stable person and now she's fluctuating between instability and normality. All I know is that I'm never going to have my mother back. She is never going to be the same again because he made her what she was. And I hate it.

God, I'm in love. I'm in love and it hurts so bad. Every time he smiles at me I think I'm going to faint. I go out of my way to be around him because everything seems so much better when he's around. He knows how I feel about him, I think. It upsets me because he does care about me, just not the way I want. I think it would be so much better if he just didn't care. I worry that I make him uncomfortable because he knows. I know it must show when I look at him. I just don't know what to do.

The whole band is in VA beach. Well, not really anymore. They should be on their way home right about now. I miss everyone so much! Especially my Tasha. I'm making her a CD as one of her birthday presents that has a bunch of songs that describe our friendship on it. Harder than it sounds! Anyway, I can't wait til they get back so I can hear about their trip. Gotta go find Tasha a little e-card. It's her birthday in a few hours.

Ta!

Brooke

[	Current Mood	|	annoyed	]
[	Current Music	|	Random songs in my head	]

Bleh. Really ticked off right now.  Tasha called me at about 7:30 and asked if I wanted to go to Steak & Shake with her, Will, and Cody. Cody ended up not being able to make it, but we went on ahead.  We got to S&S and decided to go to Sonic instead because the drive thru line at S&S was so long. So we went to Sonic and got our drinks.

This whole time, Will was out eating at Logan's Roadhouse and we were just waiting for him. Well, we got bored and decided to just wait in the Logan's parking lot. We opened the back hatch and just sat there listening to the radio. (A couple of cops pulled up but they only laughed and asked if the line was that long, thank goodness.)

Well, finally around 8:45 Will comes strolling out with his brother Tyson and one of Tyson's friends. Tyson and his friend left to go home.  First thing Will asks is "Where's Cody?". Now, don't get me wrong, I absolutely adore Cody, look up to him even. But, really. That's just rude. He asked what we were doing. We told him that we had been waiting for him, obviously.  He then proceeds to tell us that he is going home, to bed.

WTF?

Honestly! He made plans to go out with us and then breaks them without even blinking! I wonder what goes on in his head? Does he just really not like Tasha and I anymore? Or does he just not like people in general? Does he actually have any emotions at all??? UGH! I'm just so mad and hurt.

I guess I'll go for now. Ta.

-Brooke